It's Time!

OMG! How fast did these 2 weeks fly by? I am 10 hours away from going to the hospital and a little less than 12 hours away from the actual surgery. For the record, I’ve been mildly freaking out today....so much so that I made Alex help me rearrange our living room. (Yup....that's stress!)

This part of the journey has been something. The worrying, the hunger, the frustration...you name it, I've felt it. And yet throughout this process, I can't help but feeling humbled the most. That must sound weird, I'm going through a HUGE life changing surgery and yet I can't help but feel so blessed to have such amazing people in my life. Today, I posted on my facebook a status update that basically said "OMG!!!! 1 day!!!" and I received 19 comments in less than an hour! I posted again a few hours later to comment about my 12 hour mark and again received almost 20 comments! WOW.

You have all shared your stories, fears, support and love with me and for that I am thankful. So, this post is all about my saying thank you. I really could not have gotten through these past few weeks without all of you. Please keep the positivity and love coming this way. This journey has only just begun, and I know that I am going to continue to need all of you. Much love.

On another quick note; in 2 weeks I have lost 14 pounds. Sitting at 281. Here are a few pictures of me today.

I guess, in the end, this is it! Am I mourning food, one of my best friends, greatest confidants, and the best therapist? Hell yea I am. Am I tired because I have nothing but liquid in my system? Check on that as well. However, at this moment, I have a sort of peace with it all. Of course I'm scared. I have NO idea what is coming! If I wasn't afraid I would be abnormal. But in the end this is the first day of the rest of my life isn't it? A life that is going to be filled with energy, filled with love, filled with feeling beautiful, and (hopefully) filled with my dream of being a Roller Derby Girl! (I know random, but I wouldn't be able to do it right now and I SO want to! I've obsessed over it for the past 3 years...but that's a different story for a different day.)

All I know is that I can no longer be afraid of what I do not know. This surgery is going to go amazingly well. I know that, you know that and my surgeon is positive of that. So, all I can do now is trust in my doctors and nurses to do the absolute best work that they can do. Whatever happens from here is going to happen, so no regrets, no fears, and no tears.

So, with that I'm off! Wish me luck. ;-)