3 days and counting...

Monday is fast approaching and I am freaking out a little bit more each day. I keep having these moments....they are not long and they don't even last a few seconds....but I keep thinking, I don't need this. I can do this on my own. Who wants surgery anyway? In the end I am FULLY aware of the power of fear, and that is all this is. This surgery is going to change my life! It's totally worth it!

Today was my last day at work with my co-workers. I'm going to be in the office tomorrow to help out with a shoot, but otherwise I'm done. I'm on a 2 week "vacation". WOW! How time flies. I just finished my testing, or so I thought. I didn't expect all of this to move so quickly. I really thought that over 6 months of prepping would take longer. Maybe like 2 years or so. LOL. But none the less, in 3 days I will be undergoing major surgery and I have to say, the outcry of support that I have received has been amazing.

I received an email today about a healing group that I participate in. Every month they send out a list of people who need healing and you meditate and send them some healing energy to aid them through whatever they are going through. It's a really nice program. Well, today's list came for this month and I was at the top of the list! I had no idea that anyone would put me on that list....and I was truly honored. I've been so blessed to have my friends and family come out and share stories, insecurities, and strengths with me. I'm hoping to be able to return the favor one day.

So, with 3 days left, I am left scared, excited and humbled. Thank you for all of your love, and keep on sending that positivity my way. It's helping more than you all know.

Stay with me...."I'll be back" ;-)